Spring Break: Good Time to Catch Up on "The Saga of One F**ked Mother"
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Spring Break is a good time to catch up on “The Saga” or review what you’ve already read. If you’ve missed reading any chapters, now’s your chance!
Mother-Fucking: The Saga of One Fucked Mother is a novel based on Dr. Blue's fateful encounter with the Family Court system. She creatively conveys to the reader how family courts are systematically and methodically “mother-fucking” women as she chronicles the sordid tale of protagonist Legion becoming “one fucked mother” in captivating detail.
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Mother-Fucking: The Saga of One Fucked Mother
PROLOGUE
“Even if I am a Minority of One, the Truth is still the Truth.”
—Mohandas K. Gandhi
Legion True is given 5 weeks leave from her multiple jobs and will use this time to write about her “nightmare of nightmares” as she promises to put down “Nothing But the Truth”.
Exactly ten years ago to this day I, and a few of the Entire World’s finest True Friends, stepped into a very small, county civil courtroom in Middle America, USA, the land that is the very Fecund Womb of food proliferation for that same Entire Globe, and into the nightmare of nightmares of all of my life.
BOOK ONE: I THINK WHAT I WILL
CHAPTER 1
A Couple of Definitions
“Whiskey and Truth should both be served straight up, Doctor.”
—Watkins, the photographer, to Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman
Legion explores how the term mother-fucking is used so casually and so often, but never father-fucking. Herry uses it constantly as a descriptor, but with regards to Family Court, it is a noun: “…mother-fucking took place in that same county’s courtroom down the road nine or ten miles”. At the same time she realizes she did not need him or any man for the real thing—alternative means being safer and better.
But especially Jesse will now know, also Mirzah and Zane too, the one and true meaning of another word. Unlike the noun, father-fucking, mother-fucking, the word, is blown about like so much chaff…
CHAPTER 2
How, How in the World Did We Get Here From There?
“…a progression of outrages.”
—Bob Edwards, Host, National Public Radio’s Morning Edition, 14 September 2000, in referencing events in Europe in the 1930s leading up to … that Holocaust
In Chapter 2, Legion wonders how she could ever go from being such a good mother and wife to being deprived of her children and normal life. She begins to see the power that men wield both in the family during marriage and then via Family Court judges who empower them after separation.
And, of sons, of children, how could a mother ever lose custody of them? Even in the ‘90s?
…How, I ask you, how do I realistically stand up to a pillar-of-the-community, physician ex-husband who not only dares to, but so smoothly does, take away all forms of contact between me and my three Sons…
CHAPTER 3
Holocausts
“If you were not hysterical, Legion, then…then is when I would be worried about you.”
—Margaret Stanley, lifelong Quaker, on the telephone, while preparing for her nursing quest to China
In Chapter 3, Legion relates to survivors of Aushwitz—“that unthinkable hell”. Just as mothers freed from the concentration camps had been severely traumatized by the loss of their children and having been imprisoned away from them for years, so she had been—trapped in her Family Court nightmare. But would she ever be liberated and reunited with her children?
…American courtrooms have a way of not listening to—or for—the Truth, however. The legal system is not a god-like institution at all. It is not there to seek the Truth despite any, and sometimes every, pretense of that.
Yet people there, isolated and insulated and unpoliced by anyone and not accountable to anyone, least especially not accountable to their tax-paying ‘employers’, you and me, that is, the American public masses, play god with the lives of us humble payers and those of our children’s every hour of their working week all year long.
CHAPTER 4
No Witnesses, But Hey, Still No Contact
“When they come, they’ll come at what ya’ love.”
—Al Pacino in the role of Michael Corleone, Godfather III, 1990
In Chapter 4, Legion flashes forward to the time she “risks it all”, traveling cross-country in an attempt to find her precious boys and sneak a visit—after many years of not seeing or hearing from them. The judge had ordered no contact despite there being no witnesses who could corroborate her ex’s false allegations against her.
…One tear silently tracked down my drawn cheek in Ol’ Black’s front seat packed to the hilt on its passenger side.
I looked through the rear–view mirror at Jesse sitting just right behind me and quietly stated out of the clear blue, “Before I die, Jesse, I am getting this down on paper. I have to write this down. I am not going to be dead an’ve had no way of leaving my Truth for you three to know.
CHAPTER 5
Friends
“My friends are my estate.”
—Emily Dickinson, on wealth
In Chapter 5, Dr. Blue pays tribute to friends who remain loyal to victims of the Post-Separation Crisis. Legion has many loving friends who support her throughout her Family Court ordeal. At the same time, she ponders how the person who should have been her best friend—her ex, the father of her children—was anything but, and how he himself, tellingly, had no real friends.
“O! M’god! You’re married to Dr. Edinsmaier?! Dr. Edinsmaier??!! Get outta’here, Woman! … No! Really?! O! M’gosh, you are soooo lucky!” Over the course of the 14-plus years that Herry and I were both in the medical and research professions together before and after marriage, my path crossed repeatedly with those of many, many women who would exclaim to me, upon learning that I was, indeed, his alleged ‘best friend’, how it was that he would bring them flowers and it wasn’t even Secretary’s Day and how it was that he’d provide doughnuts Friday after Friday and take them all out to lunch together or individually just spur of the moment-like, his treat …
… and how it must just follow, didn’t it, that he did all these same romantic, appreciative gestures for me, his wife and best friend, didn't he?
CHAPTER 6
Ancestors in Training
“… woman was no more than a machine to make babies for him.
‘Let them bear children TILL THEY DIE OF IT,’ Martin Luther advised. That is what they are for.’ ”
—Dr. Rosalind Miles, “The Sins of the Mothers” in her The Women’s History of the World, p. 102
In Chapter 6, Legion reminisces about her family of origin and how they play into her Saga. She mentally breaks free from her abusive familial past as her rage surfaces and provides valuable insights. She comes to realize how she (along with women in general) has felt pressured all her life to suppress justified anger and how finally expressing it sets her free.
…It must be that rage is taught as a bad thing for women to have and to show because, otherwise, things we rebels learn from having it, those insights we gain must, to our mothers and our husbands, cause them way too much havoc in their lives. Threatening. Havoc otherwise known to us women as … change. Freedom. Independence.
CHAPTER 7
Foreplay
“ … and nothing explained the fact that the men all liked the conversation and participated happily. They talked in particular about how much they would like to fuck her in the ass.”
—from Andrea Dworkin’s Chapter 27, entitled “My Last Leftist Meeting” of her Heartbreak: The Political Memoir of a Feminist Militant
In Chapter 7, Legion remembers her first painful Christmas without her children. Alone, she muses about the surrealness of having to hire strangers (attorneys) to save her three boys from her ex. This leads to recollections of a couple of years into her marriage when her ex begins a kind of cruel, emotionally-abusive “foreplay”. She becomes relatively inured over the years to these and other regular violations…until one particularly brutal incident...
…Instead, I was pondering on lawyers and the very odd, very surreal business it is of retaining some total stranger to conduct for you what will be—but, of course, the magnitude of it hasn’t nearly sunk in yet like it will later on—the most massive undertaking in your entire lifetime: the saving of your sons from…Mr.—Dr. Wonderful.
CHAPTER 8
Two Tools
“It’s just a man on a horse, Baby Girl. Nothing more. Just a man on a horse.”
—Anne Shropshire in the film role of ‘Doodlebug’ Bichon’s Great-Aunt Rae, “Something to Talk About,” 1995
In Chapter 8, Legion processes the pain of having allowed Herry to emotionally abuse her children and her during the marriage. She comes to realize two tools are necessary for making the right choice: awareness of the wrongness of the situation and the willingness to change it. She also laments how men’s false assertions in Family Court are treated as factual evidence—a key component of the systemic “mother-fucking”.
The ‘findings of fact’ written by these various judges within and preceding the final pronouncements of their decrees, conclusions, decisions, all those court orders of theirs, came about from ‘evidence,’ they called it. Because it was testimony, it was then, just by that designation—as having been something attested to under oath—miraculously worthy of being known as and called … ‘evidence.’
CHAPTER 9
Hope Is a Woman‑Killer
“You know, Michael, now that you’re so respectable, I think you’re more dangerous than you ever were.”
— Diane Keaton in the role of Kay, Michael Corleone’s estranged wife, … after he has kicked her out and gone to the Vatican, Godfather III
In Chapter 9, The premise is that when women fall victim to hope, they may end up being destroyed. Legion’s hope first kept her in an abusive marriage and then strung along in abusive Family Court litigation. She reflects on how the best way to completely destroy a mother is to take her children, and how Herry’s ultimate goal in taking her boys was for her to kill herself—the supreme revenge.
Hope harms. Acts...action...reality...reason: these are the things which save, which heal, that get the job done, that carry one through the very most evil of times, which do…the work. Hope kills.
…by far and away, bar none, the most effective way to kill her legally, the method that will get her out of your way the fastest and forever—while at the very same time putting more moolah back into your own life and, most concertedly away from hers—is to take her children away from her. Forever.
…The ultimate mother-fuck. Drive her to kill herself.
BOOK TWO: A MAMA’S LONG VIEW REDEMPTION
CHAPTER 10
Playing Strindberg in August
“I feel that one of us must go under in this struggle.”
—Adolf to Laura regarding their child’s future in Act II of August Strindberg’s The Father, 1887
In Chapter 10, Herry is shown to be an absent and cheating husband. His denigrating of Legion is at its height every August during her annual 10K run and two of the kids’ birthdays. While Legion implements a plan to take a year off from her career and enjoy being a full-time mom, Herry is secretly laying the foundation for leaving her—and taking the kids.
As a matter of fact, the house of cards was coming down, not up; and what it was that was spiraling so low, and fairly rapidly now, was our marriage and our family.
…The man, he is especial. So. Herry was off doctoring. Although three times a daddy, Herry was off doctoring somewhere. He was da’ man. Androcentrically, the standard measure.
CHAPTER 11
If ... Always a Teacher, Then Hardly ... Teachable
“… as long as I’m not being made to feel … small.”
—Suzy, during her interview for first‐time work as a whore, film version of Cannery Row
In Chapter 11, Herry regularly degrades and dehumanizes Legion in front of the boys to damage their bond with, and estimation of, their mother. One of the ways he does this is via the silent treatment, which could last for months. He inflicted this form of emotional abuse to make Legion feel small and control her. He, effectively, disappears her. Herry also escalates his crime of regularly exposing the boys to pornography by buying their oldest son a subscription to Playboy for his 11th birthday and gaslights Legion by insisting it is a freedom of speech issue.
This’s nothing more than ‘free’ speech—and doncha be messin’ with Herry’s freedom of speech and his gaaawd‐given and constitutional and, therefore, his entitled rights to teach his own Boys about their First Amendment.
I believed that, at the time, crimes were being committed. Actual, real crimes. Legal ones. Or, I mean illegal ones. Not just moral ones. And by the Boys’ father. Child endangerment. Supplying porn to minors. Molestation. Verbal, at the least—and who knows otherwise.
CHAPTER 12
The Unimportance of Unconscious Women
“Woman Is Nigger Of The World.”
—Song title and recurring lyrics by John Lennon, 1972
In Chapter 12, Legion begins her planned year of full-time motherhood with lots of extra-curricular activities for the boys. She discovers a secret Herry has been keeping that threatens their livelihood and confirms his misogynistic mindset. She comes to the realization that she had been socialized into accepting her diminished status as a woman and the little power she had in the family pre- and post-separation.
I cannot believe how into such a wuss my brainy and brawny and beautiful self had transcended. Slumped into … is a better choice of verb actually. And for soooo long now…We [women] give ourselves such a rotten rep that it makes me ashamed to be walking around now.
CAST OF CHARACTERS
Dr. Legion True: One Fucked Mother
Dr. Herod (Herry) Edinsmaier: ex/“Sperm Source” [“re: I am snide” backwards]
Mirzah Truemaier: Legion’s son
Zane Truemaier: Legion’s son
Jesse Truemaier: Legion’s son
AmTaham True: Legion’s father [Mahatma backwards]
Mehitable True: Legion’s mother [Me hit-able—i.e. she was abusive]
Ardys and Endys: Legion’s sisters [names backwards]
Sterling: Legion’s brother [mother’s planned name of next son (who never came)]
Juggern Aut Misein Edinsmaier: Legion’s father-in-law [juggernaut; aut = 0; misein = “to hate (misogyny)”]
Detanimod Edinsmaier: Legion’s mother-in-law [dominated backwards]
Fannie Issicran McLive: fawning enabler of ex [narcissis(t) and Mc(Evil) backwards]
Legion’s Friends: Yanira, Grace, Stormy, Lynda, László, Jane, Kincaid, Joseph, Sheryl
Jim Cornball: Herry’s friend from AA and realtor
Loser Lorn: Insurance agent referred by Cornball
Judge Harley Butcher: Family Court judge
Judge Sol Wacotler Seizor: Family Court judge
Judge Barry Crowrook: Appellate Court judge
Judge Pansy Shawshank: Appellate Court judge
Jazzy Jinx: Legion’s Family Court lawyer who sold her out
Author: Dr. Blue, aka Ofherod, BSN, DVM, PhD = Commander Edinsmaier's Handmaid (Commander reiamsnidE's Handmaid)
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